Posh Underground

Erin Wasson. She's one hot lady, isn't she? 

For all those lovely people who have never heard about this special lady - she's an American model, actress, occasional stylist and designer. Yup, all that. 

I'm totally obsessed (that sounds kind of creepy) with her lately! And just a little bit more with her home! I would die to have a home like her...it's just soooo me! What I love about her home is that it is still modern but at the same time kind of grunge. And her home décor - omg, are you serious?! How can you even put stuff together like that? I just love it! Simply love it! I found those pictures at The Coveteur and I just had to share them with you guys! Maybe you got some good ideas for you home or room décor, like I did. Take a peek.

I've been doing quite well, today! I've been up for more than 24 hours and I still don't feel that sleepy or tired, which is kind of weird. I should definitely feel at least sleepy a little bit if nothing else, right? After the morning hanging with my friend Ana I almost fell asleep while I was waiting for my lunch, but luckily lunch arrived a few seconds before. And I got a few more coffees later so it was all good in the end and I was pretty much normal when I went shooting this outfit post. Sometimes I have to admit I don't really understand myself. During the day I usually feel a little bit tired and I can't wait to go to bed, but then when the night comes story completely changes! During the night I always feel like I'm on speed or something and I get so many ideas of what I could do. From downloading the movies and songs and listening to them all while writing a diary or just watching an entire season of something or maybe decorating my room. Last night I was so bored when I couldn't sleep that I even started to clean my freaking room for 10 minutes at 5 am! 

I must have flowers...always and always! I'm not going to mention how's the most romantic thing ever if guy brings you flowers or roses! Oh wait...I just did mention. It's even better knowing that he "stole" them from someone's garden for you! If I could I would have blue roses everywhere! They're my favourite! They are kind of "dark", wild and mysterious but at the same time so beautiful and gentle. I remember when I was a little girl and my father often used to bring my mom blue roses and I was so impressed by them that they are still my favourite. But I never really buy them myself. I do buy flowers (I love buying flowers -  makes my day every time!) for my room decoration but I would feel super weird If I bought a blue rose to myself. Florist would probably think "poor girl!", wouldn't he? I've started my obsession with the flowers when I read somewhere that flowers are the Earth laughing. I don't know. Do you believe in that?

But I do know that it's time for me to take a hot bath, relax a little bit, watch a movie maybe and go to bed finally! Tomorrow is my first day of working for a Topshop so I have to get up early again. And I'm really not a morning person. I love early mornings, I just don't like to wake up early. 

"I only sleep with people I love, which is why I have insomnia." 

Another sleepless night. Right now it's 6:01 am and still didn't manage to fall asleep. Right now I'm thinking is it even worth to go to sleep just for a few hours (I have to start my day at 9 am), because If I sleep only for an hour or two I'm just going to be more tired and definitely way more sleepy! But then again...I'm slowly starting to feel sleepy. Well, maybe not really sleepy but I definitely don't feel like I could be productive right now - or later in this state of insomnia. 

No matter what I spend quite awesome sleepless night...with myself! I had a late night talking with the guy I like for a few hours, got some pretty awesome ideas for my true love - blog (yes, I like to have a brainstorming's with myself haha), found an inspiration for this week outfits, listen hundred times "Do you remember" song from More Than Life and I even read a little bit! You wouldn't believe me but when I started writing this it was 6 am and now it's already 8 am (I always start writing and in the middle of it start doing something else and after some time come back - bad habit!) which means that I have two hours before I see my very good friend for years Ana and go grab a coffee or something with her. After meeting her I'm going to my friend Jan's place for another coffee. Right now I would need more then just two coffees to survive the whole day. Later I'm shooting a new outfit post and I really hope it won't be written on my face that I didn't slept tonight! How was your night, guys? Did you sleep well? 

Anyway I just wanted to wish you guys an amazing start of the week! Life is a journey, with problems to solve, lessons to learn, but most of all, experiences to enjoy. So enjoy your journey! Oh, and don't forget to smile!

Is anyone else hyper as much as I am? Something weird is going on! Last night I though the problem is in chocolate. I haven't been eating a lot of chocolate for a while, but yesterday I just couldn't stop! So I though that I could have eaten too much chocolate and I'm super happy and hyper because of that. I was wrong! I'm starting to assume what could be, but I'm not going to talk about that. Oh, hell no! But this hyper thing has also a good side - me wanting to do something new or weird. Oh wait...I'm so guilty! I totally did something. I made DIY black lipstick! It was actually so damn easy. All you need is:  black pencil (oopsy, I used eye pencil), black shadow, nude lipgloss and voila! Black magic is done! 

"You’re in my veins, you fuck." - Pete Doherty says that this was the best text message he got from Kate Moss. How cute is that, guys? I just love this kind of romance. It's kind of rough, but at the same time sweetest thing ever! Don't get me wrong now. I'm not saying I want someone to text me everytime like "I like you, you fucking bitch". But a little rough but cute text message from time to time can't hurt anyone, right? Actually it's kind of sexy! Meeow!

Last night I felt so bad I thought I'm dying! No joke! My head started to hurt out of the blue like never before! And I felt so nauseous that at one point I almost started begging I don't even know who to stop making me feel that way! I barely managed to feel asleep in the morning and I still feel like shit! I wish I could stay the whole day in bed today and watch movies, eat ice-cream and listen to the music, but unfortunately I can't. There're things that just have to be done, no matter what! But it's fine...as long as there is a take away tea!

What's up, guys? With me not so much. Right now it's raining so much that it's not even romantic anymore. Well, it is if you can spend your day with someone you like (if you like someone), eat candies and pizza and cuddle a little bit, but in my case - naah. How I see the situation right now is that there is just too much damn rain outside, that I was completely wet and that I'm trying to get warm in my blanket while I'm writing this.

But heey! I got some sleep, finally! Last few days...actually it was just a weekend, I haven't slept much. Or should I say almost nothing? Don't get me wrong, I'm not sorry at all - I really had quite beautiful weekend, but the problem is that I fell asleep yesterday almost every single time I sat somewhere cosy for a few minutes. Can you imagine? I think it was really hard having a conversation with me yesterday. I was trying so hard to listen and say something smart but for the whole day my mind was somewhere else and my eyes were closing and in the next minute I was already asleep. So I was basically sleeping while I was talking on the phone, while I was watching a movie and when I got home and I wanted to sit down just for a few minutes before I'd go out again. And the last time I fell asleep (while I was watching a movie) I've slept almost for the whole night and then suddenly woke up around 4-5 am. Weirdo.  People that don't know me probably thought I must be drunk haha. 

Ok, let me share with you my silly thoughts about a silly thing that I usually don't really like to talk about. Love. When it comes to love there's no better words to explain how I feel about it than with Bukowski words: "Find what you love and let it kill you". No, thanks...I'll skip. I usually try to stay away from emotions. Even if I really, really like someone I like to stay near but yet so far. You know what I mean? I can't really stand watching people I like going out of my life. Can you? But no matter how hard you try you never know when you're going to meet someone. Isn't it interesting how we meet someone when we least expect? When you totally don't see that coming? Or is it just me? In that moment stealing his heart and he stealing your heart becomes a perfect crime. Perfect complicated crime. But no matter how perfect it may be I'm always looking for a stupid excuses until that person doesn't let me know what he thinks or feels. I am a girl, I never do the first step! Yes, I know it's 21st century but fuck that. Am old fashioned when it comes to love haha. I like seeing a guy doing something nice for me, I love letters - I really think it's a shame we never write letters, I love late night talking while the rest of the word is sleeping, I love climbing on a roof and watching stars with that person, drinking or doing whatever crosses my mind. Haha, actually I like all those cute things about love that you can find on Tumblr. And no matter how I try sometimes to stay away from those things, every once in a while something or someone comes whom you just can't overlook. Oh, man...talking about love made me hungry. I need food! No, I deserve an ice-cream for all that talk! 

I've already told you guys that I spent my Friday night out at one of my favourite places in town - Metelkova. I'm not really "club going" kind of girl. Well, no. I am actually but if something good is going on there (for example: dubstep) and it's a bit more underground atmosphere. It's not really a shock that I like more grunge places, right?

Last Friday night we were on Metelkova, of course. One of the main reasons why I like that place so much is definitely because you can simply hang with everyone. You come with your company but then during the night you always see so much friends there so in the end we always end up somehow all together. And even if you don't know many people from there you're going to meet them. That's for sure. And you can simply bring you drink, sit on the floor wherever you like, put your music on and have a good time. Later if you're in the mood you can also go somewhere inside and dance the night off in you want.

This time I had come with my peeps like always and then I found my friend Jernej (the guy in the red T-shirt) few meters away from us celebrating his birthday. The best part is that everyone knows everyone there, so we were hanging together, taking shots and act silly. Sadly I have just a few pictures from the beginning of the night because after midnight sneaky tequila came after me so one of my good friends Jacob took my photo camera with him home because that seemed like the safest thing to do. I'm really so happy and grateful to have such nice friends who take care of me.  Anyway take a sneak peek into our night out and let me know how was your last Friday night? 

What's special about this outfit is that I wear my shirt as a skirt! Gosh, how I love playing with clothes. I also wanted to give my biker boots an edgy touch so I decided to draw an "X" sign on them. A little problem came when I figured it out that I have absolutely nothing to draw with. Luckily I remember I have a white YSL lipstick which I don't use so finally her time to be noticed came. Sadly not on the lips but on the shoes. But damn...better that than nothing! 

Yesterday was my first drinking Friday night after more than 3 weeks without alcohol. I told you guys how I haven't been drinking in Bosnia where I was invited to the Sarajevo Film Festival (thanks L'Oreal Paris BiH so much - I'm still grateful!) and neither the week or even more before I went there. So yesterday I was pretty excited to go to my favourite place - Metelkova, see my peeps and have some shots with them! I probably don't really need to explain how little was enough to being drunk after some time of non drinking? Well, I blame it a little bit of Tequila - that bitch is sneaky! But, I love sneaky sometimes. Fact that I feel like shit today...not that much. Hangover glory. 

I totally need another coffee right now. I adore coffee!  Coffee is oh...so hot and warms the mug, which is nice to hold when my hands are cold, it makes me excited, it smells so damn good, it makes my morning more bearable and much more. I don't even count any more how many I drink during the day. I wish I could rest today and do nothing at all, but I have to work and shoot a new outfit post and get ready for the basketball game tonight. Tonight I'm going to root for Slovenia at Kongresni trg and take a few shots so I can share that moment also with you guys. Stay tuned, something amazing is coming up!

But you know what they say: If you want something you'll find a way if not you'll find an excuse. We could easily give up and say that camera is not working like it should at all, but we tried and tried. And after all we got a few shoots that I can use and that's all that matters, right? They not my best shoots, but they at least are.

To get what you want you have to have patience after all and work hard to sharpen your talent, to get better at whatever it's that you do. Many times you get burned - but hey, how many times more it will happen before you achieve what you want? Like I said I'm generally pretty impatient and at the time also lazy person. And just if that is not enough I'm also a big dreamer! Can you imagine that killing combination? That's why most of the time I just wish for the moon and impatiently wait for a miracle to happen. It's  fine to shoot for the moon because even if you miss you'll land among the stars, but you still have to work for that. I'm such a stubborn person so it can take some time before I finally realize something. Something like this, maybe. The thing is you know all those things before and you also know damn good that you have to work hard for your goals, but you don't really realize and take that seriously until you really try and see the big difference, I think. What do you think about that?

And while we are speaking about reaching goals and hard working I would like to congrats our guys for amazing basketball game last night! We were watching it last night at the MGL club (town theatre bar for their members) and I have to say it was hell of a game! It was such a tense game, especially because we were playing against Spain who's the favourite of the European Basketball Championship as I heard. And because at first it seemed like we're going to loose but in the end we won! Big time won! I'm just so happy and proud right now! What do you guys think about the game? Have you watch it?

In this last year I have already given quite a few interviews and press statements so that's not really something new for me. I don't mean that in a cocky way, I swear. It's just still so fascinating that  every time I get a copy of my interview it's like the first time. There're no words that can describe what I feel inside at that moment. Such happiness, pleasant and overwhelming feeling. Do you think it's always like that or you just get used of that feeling after some time? Because I really wish this feeling can stay. I wish I could have such moments for life!

I was recently going through my nanna's (grandma) closet when I noticed a lovely skirt in blue. I liked it so much that I asked my grandma if I can borrow her skirt for my night out. It turns out she liked my outfit so much that she asked me to keep the shirt, so I can remember her everytime I see or wear it. My grandma is the coolest, so no...that not all, dears. She also gave me this shirt you see me wearing in this post., because she doesn't like it anymore. We have an expression that we use when we see someone wearing something really odd or old-fashioned. It goes something like: "Are you wearing your grandma's clothes?". 

Huuuh, I'm saved! You can't say that to me, now. My grandma is a damn gangsta! Thanks, grandma!

Now, while I'm writing this it is already 3:25 am.Wait, what...that must be wrong?! Damn, no it's not. My phone said the same. Well, actually it makes sense. I came back home around 2:20 am. I was hanging with my friends and the situation turned out that I had to go home alone. And I had the scariest turn back, ever! Ok, half of it. I probably don't need to mention that I got completely lost (I told you guys my orientation is very bad sometimes and I get lost...very, very often). I had to go a little bit through the park somewhere at Dolgi Most (a part of Ljubljana, away from the centre of course), which by the way has only two working street lights, so it was dark as hell. Luckily I have on my phone "flash light" application, but I still thought at one point something bad is about to happen to me. Or with another words, directly: I was scared as fuck! I've been so scared and paranoid that I started thinking about all the things I don't do but I should and how I am going to do them if I survive. Not too long after that I overwhelmed by that silly idea and started running like someone is chasing me and I'm going to die (maybe I was!!). Thanks God the park was not big so the first part of the nightmare was ended quite soon. The next scary part was when I had to walk at the main road. Yes, I was the only person on the street who's stupid enough to walk alone there. I have a really big imagination so when I'm put in a situation like that I start imaging impossible things that can happen and see the sceneries from every possible horror movie I've seen.  But I have to admit I'm so surprised that our town seems so safe. Oh, Ljubljana...I simply love you! But I don't love the fact that our guys don't take you home so you have to walk alone late at night. We need gentlemen!